I remember my first day at this coaching class of Engineering, and we had a session in a hall where every person just completed their vacation (few were studying during this time) and ready for the Head Teacher to give a short pre-schedule of what life is going to be. We were like okay, IIT sochke aay the, mehanat krege, jaaege IIT. MUMBAI/PAWAI ke niche to no sacrifice.
I remember she asked to stand, the students who got 90% or above in 10 standard and I was not one of them, and I saw almost the majority stood up, this was not enough, she changed it to 95%, hardly few sat and rest were still, standing. This was the time the real breakdown started, my very first day I was depressed, seeing other people standing.
The movie continued, gave the list of books we needed. Not even joking it was worth Rs.10,000 and I, till date, 2 years passed from then haven’t seen more than half of the books. Not even the topper of the class went through them all. So that’s the first scam the students appearing for JEE are pushed into.
There’s this energy after coming, like no matter how you came, parents’ pressure, girlfriend also opted for science, whatever, the first day I swear is the one where you are so confident and look up to your teachers and you have a feeling ” IIT, I’M COMING” and every student have this, this fades faster than the new Government’s new propaganda. I was so confident the first month and by the end of the second month I knew, I am being tortured in disguise.
For me I can’t blame anyone, because my parents wanted me to continue with commerce or arts in the same School and like after reading this, you are already disappointed on me but yes, this was the scene. But I was a rebel. I wanted to do science. Till 10th class, I was good at maths and science and really was fascinated by the subject. Little did I knew, coming here I was only taught how to solve numerically and mug up Organic Chemistry.
Organic chemistry is such a subject where, the attitude of teachers towards life matters a lot. Teachers of organic chemistry are generally people who just gave up on life.
This is not all true. I’ve seen good teachers too but in different coachings. Yes, this comparison is only the source of entertainment for the next two years. Uski class me to ye hogaya. Unki teacher toh video se padhati. This shit is constant in this field.
Then you get into a phase, when you just want to quit, few do, who have chill parents or guts to do it. But most get stuck. I was one of them but can’t deny I was having fun. Teachers after a certain point left us, disowned us, and let us sleep, chat and do whatever we wanted until it didn’t affect the nerds.
And slowly time passes. Sorry, time flies like ANYTHING. It’s the first month and suddenly after hundred bunks, thousand fails, 2-3 new bad habits, a girlfriend (maybe), and the time of filling the form comes.
The study I did on the day when forms got released, GOD. Everyone was nervous. Before this also we got many breaks in the faces of Bizzare motivations or PTMs, but this was something different.
Then eventually the last month before the exam, (FIRST attempt) then the last week, and eventually a day before.
Fatt chuki hai. No other expression.
Studied nothing for 2 exhausting years and the so-called hard work of 2½ months will reflect.
And yeah did the exam.
Results after 4-5 days on YOUR FACE.
Gives a thought? nah.
Parents? OH MY, YES!
TEACHERS? weirdly, don’t care, like really.
Then comes boards.
A student literally is so tired With life actually is mentally dead by the time of boards. And teachers are also don’t give much shit about boards, IIT requires only 75 percent.
THIS IS A TRAP
If you reading this before all this, boards are really important and Leave JEE but don’t take boards for granted. I repeat please study for boards. Leave JEE. Fail at it. You will get a second attempt. But boards, at least in India have worth. And aspirants often try to manage both but end up screwing both.
There’s nothing as such. Go for Viva, practicals, and to collect admit cards. And no memory as such.
Skills, (puking) nothing as such exists for our great teachers, it’s all about you and carbon. Nothing else.
Bhagwan ka roop. I don’t know to be honest how to say about them. This is for sure some teachers come and change your life like never before. But some teachers are so old fashion in a matter of thought. They’ll stuff you with all the mess they know which might/not be true. But you as a decent student screw you up.
“TEACHER bhi kaat ke chale jata hai”
You have to make yourself educated about the world. No one would. And YOU KNOW WHAT
BLAMING WON’T WORK.
It simply will make you more miserable.
Don’t simply be BHAKTS of anything/anybody.
Think, you’ve got limited time left to make a difference in the world, in your life.
What if you are changing path?
You were told at the very beginning of your life. Take science because you can do anything after that. Your view is open to every other field. If you take commerce, you are bounded and restricted to change fields.
But reality, kareke to Dekho. Society maar day. To perceive your dream in India
1. Take science and Study for JEE
2. Do MBA
3. Get married
4. Have kids
5. Send money to family
6. Start working towards dream if alive
It is a cliche thing when we see people doing things that are new to society norms. But when you really do that you understand how big of a thing it really is.
Don’t you think for a 16-year-old to decide what he wants to do at 30 – 40 is a stupid thing. Like not everyone is sure about what to do. But, you got a chance, now.
You don’t even know what you’re going to eat in today’s lunch, but you know you can do this thing for the rest of your life.
It’s your life. Do things that don’t make you regret.
”Growing up and realizing that you’re trying to be good at the wrong thing will make you regret every breath.”
Anything can be earned, but not Time,
Dull but The truth.
Times were difficult. A student in JEE coaching center is already so fucked up with the pressure of coping up with the field and added responsibilities of so much other stuff.
Last message – Do whatever your heart says.
Okay, wait, wait for a second, my heart doesn’t say anything, toh job chhod du?
Whatever you doing, will end someday and you can start whenever you want.
Parents, friends, and stuff are more excuses you give to yourself You just need guts to do things.
Hard work/ smart work is the second thing.
First, get balls to accept what you gotta do.
Doing things which you think you’ll happily struggle for. After all, works take a- third of your life.
It’s your life, not anyone’s. You have to work, no one else would.
Is it difficult?
(This is just my experience and I wrote this after my boards. No offense to any teacher, unless you know deep within that you were partial with me.)